I kicked my kids out

Well today I had a pretty good day with the kids....I sat down and had a talk with them because lately i have been a big stress ball, and i can see how they are affected by it....So i reassured them that i do love them and that they are good kids- moms just stressed (or something)

Anyways after that things seemed normal...They didn't look sad. They were playing fine I was happy, they were happy. 3:40 came so I say Kids its time to go to your bowling league....Okay mom...and we were off.

When we got home i was preparing dinner and they were in their room...they have been waiting all day to go on a bike ride. So i say...hey kids...come here i wanna talk to you. So as I'm trying to tell them that i want them to put they're shoes on and get their bikes out front..i had to stop 8 times because they would talk over me and the ignore me.. and play with each other ---While i was talking....

Now this has been a big problem lately and i just cant take it anymore. So I go on a yelling rampage and then I decide that's it...GET YOUR BAG PACKED AND GET OUT OF MY HOUSE.

Instantly they start crying and i felt bad but i made them get what they thought they might need for the rest of they're lives.....They got they're bags all packed so i made them say good bye to they're oldest sister and then get out...

They said their goodbyes and then walked out the door...after being outside with their backpacks they slowly walked down the walk way (crying the whole time). I watched them and only let them get to the sidewalk before I called them back inside...I then talked to them about how that made them feel and then i explained (once again) how they have made me feel...

Emily says I knew you wouldn't really make us leave...she was crying so i knew she was lying.
Jacob (who was absolutely scared) said that i broke his heart. He doesn't ever want to leave me so he will never make me feel that way.

So then i say so let me see what you packed...the only things you would have for the rest of your lives....

Jacob packed: His big grave digger, a rail road crossing (a piece from a train table) 1 car (from a train) and then a hot wheel....

How freaking cute is that.....while looking at his stuff i burst out laughing so hard...i couldn't help it...He was so sad ---screaming in embarrassment---I NEED THAT STUFF...MOM...STOP LAUGHING!!!

Emily packed as many dolls as she could fit in her back pack. a jewelry box, a glass egg and a magazine.....

Again how funny.....She didn't care that i was laughing .

I asked them what about your clothes...they both looked each other and then to me and said I DON'T KNOW...

Anyways I hope they now see that i am serious about them respecting me....

I felt bad, but hopefully it will be worth it. I might be crazy... you tell me