I kicked my kids out

Well today I had a pretty good day with the kids....I sat down and had a talk with them because lately i have been a big stress ball, and i can see how they are affected by it....So i reassured them that i do love them and that they are good kids- moms just stressed (or something)

Anyways after that things seemed normal...They didn't look sad. They were playing fine I was happy, they were happy. 3:40 came so I say Kids its time to go to your bowling league....Okay mom...and we were off.

When we got home i was preparing dinner and they were in their room...they have been waiting all day to go on a bike ride. So i say...hey kids...come here i wanna talk to you. So as I'm trying to tell them that i want them to put they're shoes on and get their bikes out front..i had to stop 8 times because they would talk over me and the ignore me.. and play with each other ---While i was talking....

Now this has been a big problem lately and i just cant take it anymore. So I go on a yelling rampage and then I decide that's it...GET YOUR BAG PACKED AND GET OUT OF MY HOUSE.

Instantly they start crying and i felt bad but i made them get what they thought they might need for the rest of they're lives.....They got they're bags all packed so i made them say good bye to they're oldest sister and then get out...

They said their goodbyes and then walked out the door...after being outside with their backpacks they slowly walked down the walk way (crying the whole time). I watched them and only let them get to the sidewalk before I called them back inside...I then talked to them about how that made them feel and then i explained (once again) how they have made me feel...

Emily says I knew you wouldn't really make us leave...she was crying so i knew she was lying.
Jacob (who was absolutely scared) said that i broke his heart. He doesn't ever want to leave me so he will never make me feel that way.

So then i say so let me see what you packed...the only things you would have for the rest of your lives....

Jacob packed: His big grave digger, a rail road crossing (a piece from a train table) 1 car (from a train) and then a hot wheel....

How freaking cute is that.....while looking at his stuff i burst out laughing so hard...i couldn't help it...He was so sad ---screaming in embarrassment---I NEED THAT STUFF...MOM...STOP LAUGHING!!!

Emily packed as many dolls as she could fit in her back pack. a jewelry box, a glass egg and a magazine.....

Again how funny.....She didn't care that i was laughing .

I asked them what about your clothes...they both looked each other and then to me and said I DON'T KNOW...

Anyways I hope they now see that i am serious about them respecting me....

I felt bad, but hopefully it will be worth it. I might be crazy... you tell me

San Fransisco

My family and I got to sneak away. It was nice. Sure it wasn't the intention of the trip, but who cares....right.

We ended up down there because we had to retrieve some of my husbands belongings. Since we were down there, we decided to make a day of it.

We did things a little backwards the we normally would have. We hit the pier first. It was weird to not be freezing ( seeing as we are normally on the pier around 8 pm or so....and it is freezing by then) anyways after we walked the pier we ended up waking the town. Everyone was so tired but they made it. i think i had them walking for a good 7 hours. After we were done there we jumped in the car and headed for my husbands favorite beach. Baker beach. We had dinner and then we walked up and down the beach. Then we climbed over some rocks to a secret beach. (not really a secret beach, but it was to the kids) We attempted some pictures. Some were OK...some needed some help.

After that we just drove around the town. Which was OK, until we got to the hilly streets and then I was over it. So we started the long drive home. We got home around 1:30 am. and got pretty much no sleep.... it was awesome.